In the mist of the new day dawning, I sat looking out at the sun peeking just above the tree tops. A hint of playfulness, and I smiled. In everything the Lord has given us he has even gave us reason to wake joyfully, smiling and happy, but how many of us do that. I personally know people who wake cursing first thing in the mornings, cursing because they have awakened. How could anyone possibly be that miserable, so unhappy with life that they hate to even rise in the morning. I would suggest to them a change, either in their life or their attitude. I am at an unhappy place in my marriage but I refuse to make my Lord a part of something that he had no part of doing. My marriage is falling apart because we have done nothing to save it. We cannot communicate for there is too much anger and resentment of things past.I wish it could be different and I have truly put forth everything I have to make it work, but sometimes it just doesn't happen the way we would have liked. Do I wish it could be saved? For my daughters happiness, yes I do But she is going away to college in the fall. She will begin to live her own life and we want see her that much throughout the year, only on holidays and summer breaks.Do I wish it could be put back together for he and I? Not really for it has been broken for such a long long time.The love left years ago but the friendship hung on.Am I sad? Kind of I guess, but I have been preparing for this for the past few years, it hasn't been a shock to me at all, I sat and watched it crumble apart hoping and having a longing desire that he would see it and ask what was wrong but he claimed he never knew there was a problem;however he see's it now, now that it is to late to pick the thousands of scattered pieces up and mend them back together. If God has destined us to be together then this will become a thing of the past, if not we will continue on with our seperate ways.Whatever the case, I will continue to wake each morning with a smile on my face and Thank God for such a glorious, beautiful day ahead.
